"I am tired of trying to hold things together that cannot be held. Trying to control what cannot be controlled. I am tired of denying myself what I want for fear of breaking things I cannot fix. They will break no matter what we do.
Just remember that the people you call your "friends" are the people you hated and talked shit on a few months back. Just know that you lost true friends who had your back and gained friends who talk shit on you when you're not there.