These words are full of wisdom, wisdom I haven't allowed myself: I feel I'm responsible for things that traumatized me, I feel quilty, I feel responsible. Something in me speaks to me with a quiet voice that forgive not for anybody else but for your own sake. Set yourself free. It wasn't your fault, you were just a child. Sexual abuse traumatize the victims and speaking of it shouldn't be a tabu!
This has been a hard lesson for myself. I hurt my own feelings so long with a terrible self-hatred thinking it was motivational. But that's never motivational. Please try to be kinder to yourself, for both our sakes.