As long as you buy animals/animal-products, you are literally requesting the deaths of animals. Your money is supporting death. And "free range, cage free, grass fead" doesn't mean anything. There is no such thing as a humane way to kill.
Like all forms of prejudice, speciesism is UGLY and HURTFUL. Despite what society teaches you, harming others for your own pleasure is always wrong. Unlearn what you've been taught. Live the Golden Rule. Be vegan.