This is exactly why I don't open up to people. What if they don't care about me as much as I thought they did? They to HAVE to show me exactly how much they care about me before I feel confident enough to open up to them.
I always feel like I loose my friends just because I am me. If someone says a nasty comment as a joke it haunts me because I take the pain too literally and end up hurting myself even more than that person did in the first place