It’s the pain of losing them. The pain of watching them love someone else. The pain of realising you’ll never be together. There’s something so awful in the realisation that you’re never going to have.
i know that you're no good for me but it's worse without you, even when i try not to want you i end up needing you, you're my favorite joy yet my endless pain. i tried to hate you but the only thing i hated is how much i loved you.